I belong to a Twitter Literary group that meets sporadically comment on a selected short story and follow up with a generalized discussion. Last night was the first time in week we met. The short story selection was Mother written by Sherwood Anderson included in the collection Winesburg, Ohio: A Group of Tales of Ohio Small Town Life.
Everyone always brings their own personal connection to the story ... some on the same page and others completely the opposite. All comments are good and accepted.
As usual, the story selection found to be very personal to me. I also felt there was a point no one included and almost presented it in the after group discussion. I mentioned the point to our group moderator in a private message, and was encouraged to present it. However, in the past I have been totally crushed by certain group members when my points were not along the lines of their sometimes very short sighted thinking. I told the moderator that I did not feel like being beat up and was sure this would happen if I laid my new point on the table.
Last night was devastating to me in after group ... every comment I made was totally ignored by the other group members. Even the moderator only made one comment to what I contributed. I once again felt I did not belong to this group and was not included.
Oh well, I should be used to treatment of the kind I experienced last night. That has been the norm my entire life ... being invisible in a group ... intentionally ignored.
When this group originally started about a year ago it was invigorating, mentally stimulating and something I looked forward to with each new story and each group meeting. Now, all the joy has been taken away and I dread the meetings. There are several individuals that would relish the thought of me no longer being a part of this group, however, I will continue because I will not give them the satisfaction of thinking they ran me off. I will swallow my ignored prided and continue ... for no other reason than I know my comments and contributions are my own and not something I read in an analysis somewhere and copied as my own as one individual does in the group. She just is not smart enough to stand on her own merit.
Everyone always brings their own personal connection to the story ... some on the same page and others completely the opposite. All comments are good and accepted.
As usual, the story selection found to be very personal to me. I also felt there was a point no one included and almost presented it in the after group discussion. I mentioned the point to our group moderator in a private message, and was encouraged to present it. However, in the past I have been totally crushed by certain group members when my points were not along the lines of their sometimes very short sighted thinking. I told the moderator that I did not feel like being beat up and was sure this would happen if I laid my new point on the table.
Last night was devastating to me in after group ... every comment I made was totally ignored by the other group members. Even the moderator only made one comment to what I contributed. I once again felt I did not belong to this group and was not included.
Oh well, I should be used to treatment of the kind I experienced last night. That has been the norm my entire life ... being invisible in a group ... intentionally ignored.
When this group originally started about a year ago it was invigorating, mentally stimulating and something I looked forward to with each new story and each group meeting. Now, all the joy has been taken away and I dread the meetings. There are several individuals that would relish the thought of me no longer being a part of this group, however, I will continue because I will not give them the satisfaction of thinking they ran me off. I will swallow my ignored prided and continue ... for no other reason than I know my comments and contributions are my own and not something I read in an analysis somewhere and copied as my own as one individual does in the group. She just is not smart enough to stand on her own merit.
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